Friday, September 25, 2015

the Kingdom

I started a new bible study a few weeks ago. Children of the Day by Beth Moore [here]. It is filling me and I look forward to going every week.

This past week during one of Beth's videos she said something that really resonated with me: whatever you are going through-use it for the Kingdom! She talked a bit about social media and how we have all created someone that people can admire or emulate but the "fake" cannot hold up to the fire. I knew in that moment that I needed to share more about the real me and the real things going on in my life.

We are ALL going through something. Some circumstances are worse than others. Like we are trying to find and buy a house and it is one of the most daunting things I have ever gone through. So much emotion and heartbreak is involved. And all the while our best friends are in Little Rock at Arkansas Children's hospital with their 3-week old daughter trying to figure out some tummy issues. Sweet Baby Girl has been poked and prodded so much the last week. It's so heartbreaking. So yea, their situation is way worse. But at the same time that doesn't mean my/our situation isn't worthy of having emotions. I need to feel all the emotions to know, to really really know, that God is in complete control and has this whole house thing already all figured out. It's a relief.....

September marks the 1-year anniversary of us trying to find a house. ONE. YEAR. And, of course going into the process we had a "must" list: size, acreage, location, school district, etc.......

We found a house the house 2 weeks ago. A 1980s colonial and at first viewing I didn't looooooooooooooove it but being the creative person I am I saw a lot of potential in it and thanks to Pinterest I saw many pictures of beautiful colonials and knew this house could be so amazing. No acreage, but a large back yard in a very sought-after neighborhood and in the school district we prefer. So we met a contractor there, got a rough estimate on the renovation. On a Thursday we made an offer, the owners countered and we made our final offer. We waited 3 long days to hear if they accepted our final offer and they hadn't. I found this out Monday morning and was crushed. I had spent all weekend dreaming, scheming, internet surfing, etc. all to have my new dream crushed.

I was so sad, so mad. Cried a little and thought ya know? I AM SOOOOOOOO DONE! (in a very teenage whiny tone). And, in that moment I was so done. I didn't want to go through that again.

But ya know what? I woke up Tuesday morning happy, excited, hopeful....

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
 his mercies never come to an end; 
they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
                                                                        lamentations 3: 22-23

Because I trust in God's promises I know that he will give me/us the desires of our hearts if we simply pray about it! And in that early morning moment I knew this: HE'S GOT THIS! PRAISE THE LORD! I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY!

So, here I am. Back to square one. But I am here with a happy and hopeful heart. I know the house that we are meant to call home is out there waiting for us! It's such an exciting prospect and can't wait to know that house and make it ours!

I lift praises to Jesus for all the wonderful blessings in my life and I offer thanksgiving to Him for His provision in my life and the lives of those I love. Today and everyday. He is worthy of my praise!

Happy Friday friends!


1 comment:

  1. praying for y'all that you find the perfect house for you!